First post

          Surprises don't always come in those little packed boxes or parties or the stereotypical "good news" anthem. For me it came unusually. And that is what the word was made for, The thing that you discover or feel happy to know about when you are least expecting it. I wanted to write this first post from six months. That's a heck of a time. Rather I was indecisive or too choosy for what my content should be. Only to realise later that it didn't had to be anything that logical. All that it needed was to give my thoughts some physical form. And here I am (yes, yes got the Bryan Adams song in mind).First post and what to talk about, People and emotions? Yeah right. Hormones you see. So coming out of the closet, I will say few things. To warn you there are surely more than few. :)
           When I was a child I always thought that I was a smartass and I knew everything. But I was wrong, not about the smartass thing. I am talking about the knowing everything thing. Ageing and this knowing things go hand in hand. Of course for some species they are miles apart. As I grew I got to know people. Dealing with them is the most complicated algorithm because here the parameters keep changing. If you don't succeed just be happy that you gave it a try, totally worth it. I laugh and cry over the helluva things I have done last year. I enlightened someone to take new routes and independent decisions in life. Complicated? I forced someone to get out of a shitty relationship. No, it is a serious task. I would be a dead person if they hook up again. LOL. But it is like bhalayi ka kaam shuru rakho.
            So I was talking about ageing and knowing. When I look back at the not so sorted and immature 18 years old me, the first thing that comes to my mind is how stupid I was. This is natural. Being judgemental about the past always gives you an invisible scar. But getting ahead of it I see the 21 year old me. (Girls do reveal their age) Kind of sorted and smart me. Hey wait! No more narcissism. Okay so I see me. We always see ourselves in one perspective. Like it is our life and we want to be overachievers. But sometimes when I am thoughtful I project myself as a part of others lives. I am still the girl who gets curious, when there are three girls staring at you whispering stuff.(Another rumour in the making!) Haha. Not always that lucky. They might be talking some other boring stuff. World is full of possibilities. But what I am going to say next is truth. Hard to digest wala truth. Bitching about someone common brings two women together. Applies to all but men are too stubborn to admit it.
           They say that less folks get a chance to do what they love. Always happens. But find something that can at least level up to 1% of what you love. I love observing people. No I don't stare. But observation is good. Sometimes I broke into laughter after overhearing the hostel conversations or change my position when some negative stuff falls on my ears.  Life has been a bitch, a gift and a ride. Accordingly changes. And again here I am. Woah! I turned into a philosopher. This is what happens when focus shifts.(honestly no idea where it shifts, it has many options) Also some other things happen when focus shifts, like my  whole talk time got exhausted when I forgot to turn the mobile data off. Irrecoverable loss. This is harder than the break up thing. Seriously.

Life is hard at situations like this:
1) When you are out of your mind and you splurge like you have got tons of money.
2) You are stuck with boredom and there is no internet connection.
3) You go monster hungry to a shop just to find out there is nothing to eat.
                  
            I have heard these spiritual gurus talking about all the problems of humans and how to overcome them. Trust me, their solutions are not applicable for the above given real life incidents. Here, patience is the only guru and it is stuck in icy Himalayan corner of your heart. By the way talking about spirituality and gurus i remembered speaking tree. It was provided by the TOI every Sunday. I used to read it to get some dose of wisdom every Sunday morning.( CRAP! Osho and sex was the most interesting column) Nothing wrong in gathering information about what you are unaware. Helps a lot.
            ‘Unusual’ and mostly the ‘bitter’ things have a covalent bond between them. There I was for this campus placement interview and he asked me about my hobbies. Splash of happiness came to me as I was confident about this part. I talked a lot about reading and novels, only for him to ask a technical question related to some other stream of engineering. I didn't answer. Then this gentleman fired back,”Reading is your hobby then why didn't you read technical books of other streams." I was like has he gone nuts or do I need to redefined what a hobby is. But I learned a big lesson. Whenever things are in your favour at situations where you least expect them........then it's a TRAP. Certainly a trap. Don't fall for it. Go on and be a smartass till the end. Even if that means to chicken out of self created problems. Solving them is not going to help you always. Alright this seems ridiculous but it works. Give everything a try. I will end this process of typing random stuff striking my mind. Hope you wasted some minutes and you are still happy about it. :)