My perception of the world since 1993

Disclaimer: Guys I know I revealed my birth year in the title of this post which actually is hidden on Facebook. Gosh! If Facebook is for honestly posting stuff about yourselves then i am not even a human being. Superhuman. Yes.

I could not percept world when I was born. Not my fault because humans are supposed to grow gradually. Unlike a Dog or Cat who lives a happy life of 10-13 years and die. Smarter species. They don't live enough to take crap from this world and to say things like take me back to the time when I had no worries and life was simpler. Obviously some creatures live for like 500 years(these are the ones who live under water mostly). Sad we evolved and came out of water. I really wish if one of these creatures was like human human. It could have kept records of all our doings and I wouldn't have been a sceptic of all the history books. Yes. I am a sceptic and there are some really big lies in those pages of history books.
                                 The earliest memories of my perception are a bit tempered. It may consist of what other people had to say about me. I don't trust them. So i will start off at an age I clearly remember what was I doing with my life. Takes me back to school where I recited poems with utmost enthusiasm. I 'learnt' them. At that time 'learnt' meant i knew some stuff. Few years later, 'learnt' met rote learning. Few more years later
I saw the pain in Humpty Dumpty falling from the wall and having a great fall. I felt bad for Humpty Dumpty. Probably these were the teenage years. Thinking that I haven't been taught the truth since childhood. Now I came to that Humpty Dumpty was a nursery rhyme but HELLO it was a riddle. Nobody told me that. You want to try? Here it goes.

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall,
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
All the king's horses and all the king's men,
Couldn't put humpty together again.

Answer: Read this entire thing and you will get it at the end. Dare you scroll.

So my perception of this simple poem is gonna take shapes from time to time. If you read between the lines, maybe humpty was some brave creature who stood up to all the bullshit and broke himself. He/she became a changed person.  Embrace this Humpty Dumpty.

My father was the one who got me into reading. He used to bring a lot of children's book home. Champak was the one I picked up first. And some English not so famous comic books. But they helped me in learning new things. Trees and animals were a larger part of the stories. I was standing in the jungle while I witnessed a conversation between a Monkey 🐒 and Tiger 🐅. It felt beautiful and touched my heart to see that we can connect to different beings without any restrictions. Only in the books. See around. There's a Tiger and Monkey in humans too. And we don't give a damn about connecting.

Over the years like in the 2004-2005, I chose my own books. I was on a ride. Now the stories were more real. And about humans and trees and buildings and feelings. I was majorly into thrillers. American fiction. Stories of how things happened in other countries enthralled me. I used to watch German and Korean TV channels all day long with subtitles. I had fights with my Mom and Bro over this. But all those things were to satisfy a curiosity inside me that how things work in different parts of the world. No Girls. Korean TV serials I watched did not consist of Boys before flowers and other crappy teenage love stories. They were informational. Ken Follet was enough for all that I needed during turbulent teenage times. Erotic fiction comrades!

My thoughts about what I wanted to be in life were deeply influenced by the things I perceived in those times. Have you ever seen an advertisement with gory details? No, we don't end on buying the product. But few seconds of those advertisement led a very powerful impact on my mind. Arghh I am not gonna purchase that washing powder/dishwash soaps/Floor cleaners. But do I want a house that's shown in those Ads? Big time. It's a row house with a lavishly gree  garden and a family having  High Tea. Sometimes it's a car commute from Office to home. It's a presentation you give to your clients and get appreciated for. There was this strong independent women who owned her life. I wanted to be her. That seemed perfect. The gadgets, picnics on weekends, cafes and vacations to other countries was what I wanted. To grow for it, to earn it and slay it like I have won. The current life I lived then was just temporary i thought. This is going to change i believed every single day. You see, that was induced by happening of events around me. Made me work harder to achieve and call it success. Some childhood imaginations of me being a complete satisfied being. I grew up and kept working harder for these things i wished in childhood. Half of them are still not complete but am striving. I came to know few years back wanting all these things is like swaying in a deep sea of Materialism. No I don't totally oppose it. Part of me still wants the things I have ever wanted. But these days I just feel that I find peace in experiencing nature and having a good time with people. Offcourse in Cafes or homes with good speakers and nice song playing. As human beings, imitation is our forte. We unknowingly do things getting influenced. I am striving to be original these days in a sense that I have my own beliefs (which i agree maybe derived) and live up to it. Have principles in life and sitting on that wall like Humpty Dumpty.

Serious stuff? Okay. Anecdote. My parents follow religion as if it is way of life. I was supposed to read and rote learn Bhagwad Gita Shlokas. Chant umpteen Sanskrit Shlokas to be a good kid(Reading sanskrit did help in getting my pronounciation loud and clear). Pray to the God for food in plate and thank him for not killing me in sleep(Waking me up fine). There's this Shloka while bathing too(No there's nothing for taking a dump). I followed it because I was supposed to and it was kind of harmlessly enforced belief. I am not a total atheist. I sure did become Agnostic for few years. For me God is Nature. Trees, mountains,skies, birds, soil, night,day. I have faith in Naturism.

Also, I did not mention how I perceived people since 1993. Well i have to write another blog for this as it's a controversial topic and i have a lot of gossiping to do.

Giveaway:
1) The answer to that riddle is Egg.
2) The Third Twin by Ken Follet is an an amazingly Erotic novel.
3) Damn I shouldn't have posted my birth year. Anyone can calculate my age now even after a few years.